April 2012
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4/17/12 Log 79: Deck
[[MORE]]My parents made an awesome decision. They finally decided to buy a new deck for our house. All our neighbors had one and I was always sorta jealous. Hell, I wanted cook-outs and a spot to relax during the summer…
Anyways, it was being built for a while now. Probably around a month or so. My dad wanted it finished before our big party for “Easter” (quotes explained...
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4/14/12 Log 76: Renewal of Faith
[[MORE]]Yeah. Everything’s just peachy….I guess. I don’t know. I still can’t get over that last post. Was it for the best that we just move on? Did she make the right move? Sigh…whatever. She made her move. Time to move on.
Is it right to go back to Mary again? I know it was stupid and harsh on her…I mean, I was acting like a complete idiot and a horrible...
4/15/12 Log 77: Pink
[[MORE]]I did this stupid texting thing with Mary a while back. It’s…I dunno, just listen.
Somehow, I got to a point in the conversation with Mary that I decided to call her “Your Sweetness” as in like “Your Majesty” or “Your Highness”….don’t ask why. I honestly don’t remember. Anyways, I was apparently evil and needed to learn how...
4/13/12 Log 75: NVMLOLS
[[MORE]]Omfg…lol…just wow…
Yeah, I’m a bit happy. Just a bit. I don’t wanna take it too far but, this is just sorta funny. Just a bit.
Yep. Sarah’s in a relationship. Not with me. Or my friend…just some random dude…that I never heard of…at all…
Sigh. I dunno. It’s made me realize how indecisive she is and how she’s always...
4/12/12 Log 74: Betrayal
[[MORE]]Well, fuck. I’m pissed. No fuck it, I’m furious.
I thought I’d be ready for this day or night or whatever. But no. I fucked up with this so bad and now, I’m just going to wallow in pain. Oh, you think Mary did something? Nope. It’s always when you least expect it. Always.
It was an average day. I just texted Mary all day, did homework, did other shit, was...
4/11/12 Log 73: What am I doing?
[[MORE]]I feel like this is a mistake. Or a break-through. I don’t know. What the hell is this? What?
God, no. Not this again. I remember this bit. I get nervous. Frustrated with myself. Not knowing what’s right or wrong with me. Or her. Or anything.
No. Calm yourself. Remember. Calm.
Ok, think. She’s your ex. She’s been your ex for a month. The minute you text her,...
4/10/12 Log 72: Why
[[MORE]]Well, it was an average day. It’s my brother’s birthday. Made him happy. Gotta love my bro. I felt a little fucked up because of my recent grades, but it’s hell I need to stick through. On my way to the bus, I switched my phone on to check for anything. Looked like nothing was happening, but then I saw her name. Mary’s.
I decided to send her a text.
What could go...
4/9/12 Log 71: BOOM
[[MORE]]Oh gawd. I’ve got two major subjects to worry about this marking period. Before spring break began, I had to take two tests for them.
Chemistry: D+
AP Calculus: F+
WOW. I FUCKED UP…
Sigh. Whatevs. Guess that means I need to fix my shit up again. Back to April (2012)
4/8/12 Log 70: A Huge Release
[[MORE]]EASTER OMFG NOM NOM NOM
Easter service was nice, everyone was happy, and Christ has Risen.
Meat, meat, meat.
All dat meat.
Smooth face, no scratchy scratch.
Looked nifty in red dress shirt + tie.
More meat nomnomnom
Indeed, he has risen. Back to April (2012)
4/7/12 Log 69: Promises vs. Fun
[[MORE]]Hehe….I posted this by accident last night and when I went to edit it, the page was taking too long. So I fell asleep. Oh the lols…
Anyway, this was the day I usually take a break from all the altar work for the week. I mean, yesterday was the toughest day and the vigil lasts until midnight. I don’t get home until 1 AM and the next service is in 7 hours, in which 1 hour...
4/6/12 Log 68: TGI....oh wait.
[[MORE]]Good Friday. Nothing exactly good about it.
I came a bit early with my mom, got some dunkin donuts coffee to wait it out, and then entered an 8 hour service of straight singing and standing. No biggie….
Easily the biggest altar service of the whole year. Not to mention, the saddest. Everything just gets sad after this. Nothing seems too joyful or anything. I could feel that vibe...
4/5/12 Log 67: Curse of Dirty Feet
[[MORE]]My feet will never be clean, will they…? Sigh.
You see, my church has a feet washing ceremony every year in holy week on the Thursday. The bishop is actually supposed to wash the altar servants feet and we in turn wash his feet in the end. It’s supposed to be based off Jesus’s washing of the altar servant’s feet. Spiritual stuff, I dunno. Humility and humbleness.
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4/4/12 Log 66: McCafe
[[MORE]]Why did they take out the Shamrock shake? Why?
…stuck with Caramel Frappe’s now. My life lost is partial meaning.
Edit 7/27/12: Holy fuck, this was the day I shot a video with Steve and other people for a cool tap-dancing kid. Why the hell did I ignore this? Ugh, too late now. It was a good day too :( Back to April (2012)
4/3/12 Log 65: Lent
[[MORE]]In the middle of February, I started lent. That means for 50 days, I need to give up some privileges. For me, I just decided to give up meat and facial appearance. Facial appearance just means that I stopped shaving. So right about now…yeah, I have a beard. Funny, right? Not really…
I’m a huge meat fan. Anything I can get my hands on, I will eat (with an exception to...
4/2/12 Log 64: Java
[[MORE]]Awesome class. This is such a great break compared to AP Euro.
I came in the morning and almost forgot I had a new class to go to now. I thought I knew where to go, but apparently I didn’t. I had to go to the main office and sort it out a minute before class actually started. Thankfully, it was next to my AP Calc class on the same floor. When I came to the door, my Calc teacher was...
4/1/12 Log 63: Awww Yeaaa
[[MORE]]Kriss heard the whole yelling thing from my dad about my stupid remark at the party sooo she was pretty worried about me. Indians tend to be abusive people so, it seemed like I was facing my death sentence that night. Thankfully, I reached home safely. I was about to text Kriss that I was all right.
All of a sudden as I entered the kitchen, I hit a flash of white pain. Everything was...
3/31/12 Log 62: Ashley's Party
[[MORE]]Don’t worry guys, Ashley is just my cousin. It’s another one of those days where my family all gathers for a party of some kind for some occasion. This time, it’s for my cousin’s, Ashley and Peter. Of course, that’s not their real names for the sake of anonymous hehe.
Soo to start of the day, I slept. I was going up really late with my gaming and slept it off...
3/28/12 Log 59: AP Euro Finals I
[[MORE]]It was just a DBQ they said. It wouldn’t be hard they said.
Sigh….
There’s no studying for a DBQ. You can get familiar with the topic they hand out before but that’s all it stretches to. So I relaxed.
I failed, completely. You’re supposed to have 7 documents cited and 5 paragraphs. I had about…2 legit paragraphs and 2 really really rushed ones made by...
3/26/12 Log 57: Reading Olympics
[[MORE]]Ahh Reading Olympics. It’s sorta like a party every year where you know you can count on your friends to be there every time. We just read books on a given list and answer questions in teams of 12. Our school was extremely competitive about it. Our librarian was a no-mercy sorta guy when it came to dominating the league.
Everyone was there. Steve, Colin, Copernicus, Sarah,...
3/25/12 Log 56: 128(sqroot)e980
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Yeah, old trick. It just popped up in my head randomly when I was in church during Sunday School. You have to understand, it gets EXTREMELY boring for all of us in that class. The teacher stutters way too much and just…I don’t even know what he’s talking about half the time. Quite literally, he jumps off tangents like crazy. So we always decide to goof off. It helps...
3/24/12 Log 55: Sarah's Party
[[MORE]]Yeah. It’s Sarah’s Sweet Sixteen. I got invited BEFORE in the valentine incident so…it’d be awkward to cancel on her. Still, it’s awkward to show up. God, socially awkward penguin meme right now.
Semi-formal, eh? Dark gray dress shirt and tie should do. Maybe I’m over dressing?
My parents make a bigger deal out of this then they should have. My mom...
3/23/12 Log 54: Another Friday
[[MORE]]It’s just another Friday. Nothing big about it. Went to school, played all day on the computer, and slipped past bed time. Average day for DP.
Weird thing though is that I wasn’t sleepy at all. Maybe it’s the anticipation for tomorrow (you’ll see), or whatever. Either way, I just know that I haven’t batted an eye about it. Weird thinking about it. Is that...
3/30/12 Log 61: The End of a Third
[[MORE]]It’s a half day. Marking periods over. Scores are in and well…kinda reflects the whole year so far. AP Euro finals are done. We had parties. I made a video depicting my teacher and his unborn son as a commie, as well as depicting classmates in weird stuff in a 2 hour production video made at the last second.
I got a C+ on my final overall, which isn’t too bad considering...
3/27/12 Log 58: AP Euro Study Guide
[[MORE]]I got this study guide a month ago…why the hell did I decide to only do 8/9 of this NOW?? God, so much stupidity in this. I didn’t manage my time at all over the weekend and on Monday. Now, I’m pulling an all-nigher to finish this…perfect. Just freaking perfect. I’m totally prepared, organized, and shit T_T 90 terms. The worst part? Hand-written. I’m...
3/22/12 Log 53: Anime
[[MORE]]Anime has always been there. I used to watch it all the time instead of regular TV. The stories are just way better and more dynamic. Sure they’re cartoons, but its the only way the plots work. It adds to the creativity of anime anyway. I used to watch it just for Naruto and Bleach when I just discovered it. However, it took me a while to figure out they were based of...
3/21/12 Log 52: Lazi Logs
[[MORE]]Whenever I bring my laptop upstairs for late-night internetz, there are two obstacles.
1.) Parents
2.) Wi-fi
Parents are pretty damn good security. You see, they need the laptop for their own indian tv they can get from the internet. Sooo….they need my laptop. Their TV is in their own master bedroom, where they sleep. So on occasion, sneaking around to get a laptop is just plain...
3/20/12 Log 51: The Secret Formula
[[MORE]]I think I’ve come to a realization. There’s been 3 girls I’ve been crushing on for a long time and haven’t been able to get out of my mind for a very very very long time.
Sarah: The intelligence. Her mind is on a whole other level. My level. A level that can comprehend. The conversations and insight is amazing. The enjoyment we both get from it. I feel like someone...
3/19/12 Log 50: Out there
[[MORE]]Where the hell is she? What the hell is taking her so long? Am I blind? Is she right in front of me? Am I fighting for her as we speak? What the sodding hell is going on?
I feel weak. That sinking feeling is sinking lower and lower each day. I hate that feeling. When you don’t know the future, but you can’t wait another second to find out. All you can do is just struggle there...
3/18/12 Log 49: Staring
[[MORE]]My eyes keep getting drawn to hers. I keep thinking of Mary whenever it comes to Sundays. I wish I stuck it out. I wish I tried as much as I could. I wish I was honest with myself sooner so I could fix these things more easily. I feel a bit distant from her. That opening where we could still act like friends closed on me. I think it’s starting to sink in that I messed up with...
