March 2012
3/29/12 Log 60: The End of a Third
[[MORE]]This was the main final exam. I studied my ASS off the other night, with my head just buried in the AP Euro Princeton Review Book I bought….SOOO TIRED back then. You wanna know what I did? All-nighter. Very stupid move. I guess I really really really wanted to make sure I could cram it all. I knew I was going to get a bad score because AP Euro just doesn’t click for me. I just...
3/17/12 Log 48: Downs
[[MORE]]I sometimes feel so distant from the social crowd. My friends seem fleeting. They’re horribly mean the way they tease me sometimes. I don’t need to be reminded of my failures all the time. It’s like it gets constantly pushed into my face all the time. I just laugh it off because that’s what I’ve learned. Lately, I just can’t push it anymore. I...
3/16/12 Log 47: AP Euro
[[MORE]]Hard subject. I can say right now, Social Studies has always been my worst subject. History just sucks. Plain and simple. Mankind is fucked up and we’re stuck in school learning about why it is that way. Let the fuck up lead the fuck ups. Politics is dangerous power we’ve let ourselves fall under. I’m all for individualism, but people are too lazy, stupid, or violent to...
3/15/12 Log 46: English
[[MORE]]This subject scares the hell out of me. Apparently, its my easiest subject this year. I’m getting so many hundreds in it and it’s not exactly easy to do that. I’m somehow creative. I mean, I knew I had creativity but teachers always…I don’t know. They always bashed on my style. My grammar was cruel and stupid. I guess I just got close to this teacher....
3/14/12 Log 45: Mickey Fell
[[MORE]]Yeah. Fucking fell. Broke in pieces. Bathroom. Late night. Slipped from my fingers. It was cracked already. Shattered by the tiles. Mickeys arms ripped out. It’s gone. I hold a lot of sentimental value in that watch. Hard to see it fall in that one second. Then I realized I can just get another one if I wanted. The value is always there. Those memories weren’t in the watch....
3/13/12 Log 44: Chess
[[MORE]]Yes, the chess phase has begun. Recently, I’ve come across a relaxing period of no homework. From this date, I didn’t sense the trend rising but it lasted over one and a half weeks. That’s right. No homework. In the first two classes, there were no friends to goof around with and there was a lot more work to do….but the afternoon? After lunch? With awesome friends?...
3/12/12 Log 43: Familiar face
[[MORE]]I face the heart-wrenching sight of my girlfriend every Sunday now in church. “Told you it was a bad ide-“
I KNOW….geez.
Every week, I just get reminded of the wasted 5 months I spent trying to obsess over her. I still can’t figure out what I saw in her. Like I said, this isn’t 3/12. This is 3/27. This incident was long ago but I still can’t figure out...
3/11/12 Log 42: Late nights
[[MORE]]That night after the “Confrontation” log, I’ve….shit. You know what I did? I stayed up. All-nighter. Stupid, yeah? Nope. Like I said before, I slept all day. Missed so much time. Missed a good night with friends. Wasted it all up. And now they expect more sleep? They’re idiots. No way in hell will I ever endure shitty ideas. Rule of thumb: When you slept all...
3/10/12 Log 41: Catching up
[[MORE]]It’s 3/27 right now. About 1:20 AM. Yeah, I did that thing again where I completely ignored tumblr and just procrastinated on it. A lot has happened, but nothing much has changed for the most part. I believe one thought just now has changed a lot about the future and how I’ll go about figuring it all out. But first of all, I’ve got some posts to clear up. Hopefully,...
3/9/12 Log 40: Confrontation
[[MORE]]Lemme just say that after coming from school with all this aching from Volleyball and shit, I WAS TIRED. Like just knock-out dead. Usually, I’d get on the internetz and play some League with some friends. Hell, the semi-finals for the big tourney was up today at 6:00. The worst comes to happen…the router’s shot. No internet when I come home. Have to wait for dad. Thank...
3/8/12 Log 39: Volleyball III
[[MORE]]There’s a third try-out but the coaches have already made their big decisions off the first two nights. Today, we just relax and play a little 6v6. Obviously, I haven’t showed as much as the other guys. And let me tell you, hearing that the third day was relaxation was my signal to kick back and not care. BIG mistake. Apparently, the coaches were watching me from the side. Big...
3/7/12 Log 38: Volleyball II
[[MORE]]Well shit. Gotta go after school to a stupid concussion meeting. It’s not too bad, but I wish it wasn’t so damn boring. There were a few track people there making up the meeting too, but for the most part the room was empty. The lady teaching it all was nice and stuff, but you knew that no one in the room wanted to be here. I was the only one that needed to take the test they...
3/6/12 Log 37: Volleyball I
[[MORE]]So I had it in my mind to do some type of sport this year. I mean, anything would do. I just needed to be good at it. I’ve played soccer for some time now, but I quit a long time ago back in 7th/8th grade I believe. It was a terrific sport, and I’ve gotten really good at it. Alas, it didn’t really stay. I got tired of it. Sports aren’t my thing. I value my time...
3/5/12 Log 36: Avoidance
[[MORE]]The valentines day episode had been a bit tragic. I know I don’t try to show it, but its eating away at me. I usually walk with her and my friend that she likes down in the mornings as friends. Now, I don’t think I can ever walk down that road again. I started to, but it just…every time I look at her, I see my failure. I see how much I’ve fallen since the beginning...
3/4/12 Log 35: Siblings
[[MORE]]As some may know, I have a brother who is autistic. It’s ok I guess. I mean, it isn’t. God no, it isn’t. But if I have to live with it, which I do, its ok. I really do love him. He gets annoying sometimes. And he smells funny all the time. He’s a bit gross. But hell, he’s my brother. Nothing can change that about him.
Sometimes, I wonder what’d it be...
3/3/12 Log 34: Wasted Mornings
[[MORE]]Have you ever slept so late in the day that you couldn’t figure yourself for all that wasted time? That you just slept all morning and afternoon on a perfectly amazing day that you could have used to your advantage more? It feels crappy. Exactly what happened today.
I guess I played League a little TOO much yesterday. I slept until 3 in the afternoon. At 4:30, I left for a church...
3/2/12 Log 33: League
[[MORE]]I play video games. A LOT of video games. Mainly right now, I play League of Legends. I suck at it, but it’s all k. Finally got to Level 30 today. Big milestone. I feel proud and dumb. I dunno. Nothin to talk about today really.
I ate pie. It tasted great. Back to March (2012)
3/1/12 Log 32: Madness
[[MORE]]Alfredo sauce tastes different when its different. I didn’t know I named my 7th grade science class frog after a sauce until now. Pumpkin pie is so fucking delicious. March madness. Back to March (2012)
2/29/12 Megalog #1: OHWUTHE-
[[MORE]]Yep, I procrastinated on tumblr. For a month. The whole month of February, gone. Yes, a lot of shit went down. I decided with all that was going on, I couldn’t make logs in the meantime. Parents were cracking down on me to go to sleep before midnight. It finally caught on and tumblr went to the side. I couldn’t really keep up…so I decided to do this. Since every four years this day only...
